New Beginings

Hello freinds. I know that it has been awhile since I last posted but im sure yall are used to it by now. At the begining of this month I took a lovely four day vacation with a very dear freind to see some other dear freinds in Georgia. It was the perfect vacation. I wasnt exhausted when I came back. Other than that thre isnt a lot going on. I am busy well fairly busy starting a new relationship and building that up. He is a sweet guy and ive been spending as much time with him when he is home as he can tolorate. He has a wounderful family as well. We will see what God has in store from us. As far as the other news I am having a roomate move in August. As much as some people like to live alone I do not. I like having someone around to talk to. We shall see what God has in store for me this next month. Have a blessed week.

The Winds of Change..

Ive never been a big fan of change. I never liked going to a new school or starting a new job or starting a new semester at college. I like things to stay the same but I know that things have to change in order for us to press on the new heights. Theses last few months been very difficult to get through. My heart still aches and I still catch myself thinking of what might have been if certain events hadn't happened...but I try not to dwell in or on the past because I know that you cant ever heal completely and move on. Satan loves to dredge up the past over and over again...at least in my life that seems to be the case...and unfortunately I find myself getting sucked in and having a pity party. But I just have to buck up and move on. With Gods help I know that I can do it its now a matter of me wanting to move on. But I know that without change we can never strive to be better. I hope everyone has a lovely week.

March Madness...

As many of my readers know that this past month has been a very trying one. Although its wound up leaving me distressed and some what wounded I can look back on it and see that God is teaching me. Ive learned that I can be clingy and needy (I'm working on just backing up and just giving some space and time where it is needed.) I will admit that no I do not have this down pat but I am truly doing some soul searching and asking God to help. Its hard for me just to let completely go but I'm learning to let go. I have to trust God and I have to learn that even when I have no idea what is going on be it with a person I care deeply about or whether its a situation. I can honestly say that I am learning to just let go and let God take complete control. Yes its hard...I'm female and I like to be there for people that's just part of who I am but I can honestly say that I do have trouble of just letting go and backing off when I am asked to or when I need to. Sometimes the best thing you can do for a person or a situation is to just give it up to God. I will admit that yes I have a hard time trusting. I am asking God for His help in this. So I ask you to pray for me that I am better able to back off, let go and trust. I also ask for a little patience from those who I have crowded. Psalm 56:11 In God I have put my trust, I shall not be afraid.

A Long Week.

Its been a rough week and a very long one....there have been valleys and shadows as well as mountain peaks. Its weeks like these that I feel so helpless and weak not strong enough to be there for those who need me. But as the saying goes what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Although I don't feel like I am to the strong part buuut I'm getting there slowly. Prayers are defiantly appreciated. I hope all my readers have a lovely weekend!

Daylight savings.

I'm going to start off by saying that I despise daylight savings. I really wish someone here in Texas would decide that we don't need it. It really through my body clock all out of whack. All this springing forward and falling back. Although I must admit that I like having an extra hour of daylight but I don't like having to get up in the dark. Well there is my ranting I'm done with that now. I hope that everyone has been able to get out and enjoy this gorgeous weather we are having. Today was beautiful I just wish I didn't have to stay inside all day. I really miss getting to be outside more. I used to work at a day care and would get to go outside with the kids but then I got a full time job in a doctors office and am stuck inside all day. But I'm where God wants be to be so I cant complain too much. I'm really wanting to go camping before the weather gets too warm but we shall see if time permits that. Ive been so busy lately, but it has been the good kind of busy though so I cant complain too much about that either. Well I suppose I should quit complaining now. I hope everyone has a blessed week!

2 Timothy 4:5 But you be sober in all things endure hardship.

The Valley of The Shadow of Death...

This week has been the longest week of my life. So many things have happened its been a hard week. My boyfriend lost his mom unexpectedly at the beginning of the week. I didn't get a chance to know her very well but from the few times I got to spend with her I can tell she was an amazingly strong and God fearing women. She will be greatly missed by everyone. It all happened so quickly its been like a bad dream that you cant wake up from. God is always with us and He is right here beside this family. As most of my readers know my family is no stranger to death I guess you could say that we are well seasoned when it comes to death. I lost both of my grandparents in a six months span of each other. But they weren't so sudden, but all of this has made me realize that God definitely uses all of our trials and He helps us so that we are better able to comfort those who are going through the exact same thing that we have gone through. I encourage everyone to stay strong through whatever trial you are going through so that you could possibly be better able to help someone else who will go through the same trial.

God's Way.

Sometimes God has ways of telling us that we need rest. Obviously He is telling me that I needed rest. I have been sick since Friday. Looking back over the month of February I can see why I got sick and have stayed sick. I think that it was God's way of saying slow down and take time to rest. So as today is the first day if March I have decided that I am going to rest more and do my very best to be less stressed. I think that everyone in my life would benefit from it. Lets face it I get grumpy and mad when I'm stressed and to add not getting enough rest to the mix makes me a very hard person to be around. So to all of those effected by my moods I am terribly sorry. I thought of this verse "Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 40:10 We tend to push ourselves past our limits lets face it. We tend to miss out on God's beauty and His glory. We are often times to caught up in our lives that we forget to take time to rest in His beauty and peace. So I encourage all of my readers this month to be still and take time. I hope everyone has a blessed week. Get plenty of sunshine rest and drink plenty of water or sweet tea and just relax.