Numbness

Its not just something you feel when a doctor or a nurse draws up Lidocane in a syringe and puts in you to numb an area of the body. It can also be felt in the soul and the mind if you aren't careful. You feel nothing you go about doing the same monotonous things every day. you tend to exist and not feel. Whether it be from past pain such as events that have left scares and deadened the area that was affected so you don't feel it anymore. You just tent to exist going through your every day tasks and getting to the end of the day and not remembering what you did of if you felt anything. What is even more dangerous than just being numb during every day events is being spiritually numb. God wants us to exist for Him and wants to exist in us. We should always be alert to the temptations and sins of this world if we aren't and we don't resist them they become part of us. It can happen gradually over time, I used to think that you would feel it instantly that pricking sensation, but sometimes we don't we tip a little and taste its bitter sweetness and before you know it you've drank half the cup. Then we feel, we feel guilt remorse and shame. Some may cry silently while others may weep and wail. We should feel all these things our hearts should be broken because we have broken our Saviours heart. He spilt His blood for us he felt pain so that we could be in His kingdom. Its a price we will never have to pay and its a pain we will never feel. Look, look deep inside and see if the things that are there are pleasing to Him. Don't let the slow suttle sins engulf you to the point that you have become numb.
Now to some people this post may seem dramatic to people but I hope that it benefits and feels real to someone who reads it.

I am such a horrible blogger I know...I cant believe it has been this long since I last posted. I'm trying to figure out how to tell my readers what has happened since I last wrote. I now have been working at a Dr's office for almost a year now. I have been through some tough times there I will admit but it has been one of the best years Ive had. There are only three of us that are full time and we have one part timer that comes in and does some work for us. I know that God has me there for purpose and I know that even thought times are a bit rocky at work He is still there. In other news I have moved into an apartment in town and I have the most wonderful roommate ever, :) She also works with me now. It was a big step for me but it is teaching me a lot of valuable lessons. I met my roommate via other friends and we have gotten to know each other over the past several years and she was looking for a roommate and I was praying over moving out and the Lords timing was perfect. We have been living here for a month now and I'm still loving it! I am also going to have another adorable niece as of December 20,2010!!! My other niece will be two next Sunday. It is amazing how fast they grow up! I am loving being an aunt, it is awesome!!! I am still single but am learing every day to pick up this cross and bear it patiently. I am currently praying over what I should do with my free time on the weekends. So if any of my readers have any suggestions please let me know. I cant say that I haven't had tough times and have made some pretty bad mistakes but I know that with Gods help I will learn to be content with the road He is leading me on. I am considering starting a Bible study next semester hopefully by then everyones schedules will work out a little better. Right now the girls that I am closet with and I end up spending time together walking during the week and having girls nights every now and then. I am so thankful for the close friend's that God has given me and look forward to making new friends. I hope everyone had a blessed week and is having a restful weekend.

God bless!

2010

Happy late new year!!!! 2010 looks to be a promising new year. Of course I made resolutions and of course I have broken them already. But there is still hope that I can make a come back. I hope that all of my readers have a wonderful new year! God bless!